the calling | Sinai desert, 2019





I was sitting in the waiting room at the dentist and read through a magazine. A reportage about the desert. I skipped the text as the images catched me. The never ending sand dunes, the tones of the desert, the air blowing through my hair, the hot sand under my feet … they instantly teleported me into that place.


Without realizing I was running a vivid vision in my head. I could feel the adrenaline rushing through my body. I didn't know how long that lasted but when I opened my eyes I felt almost a bit dizzy, with a smile on my face like after waking up from a sweet dream.





I was on my way home. One side of my mouth completely stiff after the dentist. The sun was shining, what a good day! I felt good.


Weeks later a woman contacts me. She is planning a desert retreat for women and she was in search a photographer (we found each other on social media). She wants me to be the photographer documenting the trip.


How do you feel about it? Do you want to come?


I told her about my vision at the dentists waiting room. This again started to feel like a dream. A damn good one!




From then on life took it's magic.




OF DEATH AND REBIRTH


I surrender to the raw-ness of the endless seeming desert landscape. My mind is still.


There must be something to come, up my mind thinks. I have 'problems' where are they now?


One night at the camp fire, we gathered to sing, laugh and tell stories.


One moment –– I suddenly wake up!


Wake up to THAT moment.


I feel deepest love, acceptance and gratitude. For what is, for what I am and for I think I am.


I surrender to that moment fully and that was the moment I felt reborn. Falling in love with myself and life again.





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